i've been laying in my bed for the past 2 days suffering from a fever that went up to 39.0. thruout this 2 days i've been tinkin abt everything tat has been happening in my life for the last few weeks. it realli saddens mi to realise tat things can nv be the same as they are anymore. so much for having so many ppl by ur side tat u can confide in and trust in. suddenli everthing feels so surreal. i even come to a point now where i dun even noe watever i'm doin is right or wrong. the vengeful thot juz keeps lingering in mind...the thot of wanting to get back at those who took away from mi wat is supposedly mine.

i spent the whole of last nite watchin 11 episodes of heroes. despite mi still suffering from after effects of my fever...that show juz kept mi awake for the whole nite...not onli tat but it also got mi to question myself if i realli knew myself. i've alwaes tried my best to accomodate to everyone tat i can...to care for them and to be there for them whenever i can. but eventualli wat i ended up wif is disappointment and despair. i let my frens down...i screw up their lives...and i hurt myself in the process as well...i tink maybe its mi not slpin for the whole nite tat got mi tinkin the way i am now...hopefulli everything will come to an end after a gd slp...

pls tk this nightmare awae from mi...give mi back the life tat i used to hav...cuz i dunwan to be part of this wretched story no more...

dsi: 0/4

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